A and N!

i cant believe you're gone
two more to the list
as those who left before
you will be really missed

it takes my toll to six
how many more will go
what makes us hurt so much
no one will ever know

none of us deal with it
we just dont share our pain
and one by one we falter
i know i'll fall again

first there was my angel
my hope and guiding light
the one that was my saviour
the one i miss at night

next there was my soldier
the one who made me tough
he gave everything for the queen
but it was not enough

then it was my teddy bear
the soul made to snuggle
tried his hardest to stay happy
but he too lost the struggle

then there was my boffin head
she tried to make me clever
the pain in her head got too much
and there was no more forever

the final two were as one
perfection of true love
its hard to think that they aswell
have travelled up above

first to leave was smilez
he always made spirits high
but all the hate got too much
and he left a heartfelt goodbye

shortly after, the pout went too
who got me 'in the zone'
once his forever love had gone
he couldnt be alone.

R.I.P. My missing family, i know all of you fought the fight for as long as you could and i keep fighting my own battles because you all convinced me to at one time or another. you guys saved my life, each and every one of you and i cant believe you are all gone!

I'll see you guys up there though - save me a seat.

I love you all more than you could ever imagine

xx

july 12 2009

oliver - he needs me

This song seemed appropriate, both in the way i feel about my relationship with someone, the way i feel my best friend in the world is acting and the way i feel a friend is acting with me. People have the ability to change the world if they would just try!!



As long as he needs me..
Oh, yes, he does need me..
In spite of what you see.....
I'm sure that he needs me

Who else would love him still
When they've been used so ill?
He knows I always will..
As long as he needs me

I miss him so much when he is gone
But when he's near me I don't let on.....
The way I feel inside
The love, I have to hide..
The hell! I've got my pride
As long as he needs me

He doesn't say the things he should
He acts the way he thinks he should
But all the same I'll play
This game his way
As long as he needs me..

I know where I must be
I'll cling on steadfastly..
As long as he needs me

As long as life is long..
I'll love him right or wrong
And somehow, I'll be strong..
As long as he needs me

If you are lonely
Then you will know..
When someone needs you
You love them so

I won't betray his trust..
Though people say I must
I've got to stay true, just
As long as he needs me

thursday 02/06